2 Things i hate about you..

Ha ha.. Hari ni aku free.. FREE, ha ha.. boleh gelakkan orang yang jadualnya ketat sendat padat. Ha ha.. Syukur, Tuhan kurniakan aku hari Khamis yang mulia kasi aku rehat cukup-cukup. Even tak payah fikir pasal ke mana hilangnya tong air suling aku. Ha ha.. esok orang pulak gelakkan aku, gelakkan sampai hari Sabtu!

Hari ni awal pagi lagi aku dah rasa sayu, suddenly terkenang cinta K3G Naina pada Rahul. Kata Naina "Takpelah kalau kisah cinta aku tak berkesudahan, tapi janji dengan aku, tamatkan kisah cinta kau Rahul". Oh, rasanya macam tu. Aku tak mahu jadi Naina, atau Rahul. Aku tak mampu jadi Naina, atau Rahul. Jangan mintak aku jadi Naina, atau Rahul. Jangan paksa aku.

"I hate it when you're not around
And the fact that you didn't call,
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you;
Not even close;
Not even a little bit;
Not even at all."
Kat; 10 Things I Hate About You

Tak apa, yang penting aku free.. FREE, dan masih perasan terkena bahana cinta sayu. Relevan?.. entahlah. Sekejap, aku check PEA aku.

A new shoes and a shoes

Shopping spree! Shopping spree! And i need a new pair of shoes. I'd been thinking of buying one for a while, imagining what it would be like. I'd like a half/full covered with non-skid sole as i work at the lab most of the time. It begins with the right materials, the right comfy, and above all a real smart look of both insole and outsole. I've been facing some difficulties with these current shoes and it didn't have the right amount of stresses for the job required.

Although i've done all the selection, i'd put off making the final purchase. I wasn't sure if i was quite ready for such replacement - and to be honest i was scared i'd end up buying the wrong shoes and wind up being disappointed. These old shoes had been with me through good and bad times, and it understands me well. A new shoes does'nt guarantee a hassle-free, rite? But anyway i need a new shoes, and a shoes.

Pastman

When i was about to begin the class session, i saw a familiar well known face rushed into the lab. He was late. I recognize his style. I known him for so long, only that we were technically out of touch due to me migrating here for the past few years. I cant believe this, i cant believe that i bump into this guy again. I remember those times we had every Saturday night together, experiencing the beauty and stillness of the night. I remember the face who took my nothingness and gave something better in return. Ashraf Mustaqim, he is.

Well.. he is my Astronomy little 'sifu'. He taught me about the stars, about the charm of the sky every Saturday night. He introduced me to Prof Chong Hon Yew, an expert in Astronomy and he made me believe that the world is not enough for me. Hmm.. "Okay, lets start the class now."

What a word can summarize

Moral: Watch your words.

Exodus

I have completely cleared out of my old place and have everything under one roof again in my new house. Of course there's still lots and lots of work to do - unpacking for one thing, filling some empty spaces in the kitchen, thinking of the bedroom new look, chaos in the closet, unmanaged ants problem, bla.. bla.. bla.. Being too tired doing the new house. I went on tak larat day after day after getting home from the office, so the cleaning process delayed. Well.. for the time being, it's just a new tongkang pecah.

And now dear friends.. i am strugling to understand Sasser Worm, cause my pc was infected! Darn! Darn that 18-years old German boy.

Things are worth changing

Some groundrules in my personal life, are slowly changing. I believe that i have, at times, take things easy. Drop down a gear and dont drive too fast when i think i should be cruising. I may not be the first to reach the finish line, but experiencing extra ride might represent a significant change than the life before. And when the going gets nearly end and the dos has done, i am too tired and afraid. Maybe it’s the time i just lean and laugh at stupid deeds, or the way that dreams reluctant to light up the night, or just the way i can remember the way it used to be and be glad that i am where i at. Help me!

Knocked out

Owen at his best

England once again done something to dominate the very first half, managing corner kicks (even they missed one), penalty shoots (and shoot outs) and waking me up after 2 hours sleep. Awww.. darn, i know England is worst in handling penalties, but i know they've played their best. I'm shattered. Hey, even Michel Platini and Eugene Socrates pun ada missed penalties apa.. I'll root for France after this, i dont support them but i expect them to win. So, next time England!

England biffs

Heroes of England

9:00 pm, June 21

Me : *tit tit tit - Wake up timer: 5:30 on Sony TV*
WF : What are you doing?
Me : Football. I have to witness Croatian's failure to England. *sleep infront of Sony TV*

I bet most Malaysians support England. I would say if it's World Cup, England got no chance coz their game is too bland as compare to the Latin America counterparts as well as few of the Europe teams. Nevertheless, with Rooney, Owen, Becks.. the team looks ready. It was a depressing time when Kovac scored in the first fifth minute, but as assured by myself, they won with 4-2. It England's first quarter final when they are not hosting, and i'll root for them for the next meet with Portugal. So, satu lagi sesi tidur awal! And France still look good with 3-1 to Switzerland. Well, i dont think it's stupid stay up late watching 22 men run for a ball anymore, their muscles entertaining tho. Heh!

Al-Kahf

"But your Lord is Most forgiving, full of Mercy. If He were to call them (at once) to account for what they have earned, then surely He would have hastened their punishment, but they have their appointed time, beyond which they will find no refuge" [Surah Al-Kahf; 18:58]

I've been told by a very good friend to read Surah Al-Kahf every Friday, when most of us usually recite Surah Yaasin, which is a little bit shorter and easier. The surah may be read during the night or the day of Friday.

From Abu Sa’eed al-Khudri, who said: "Whoever reads Surah al-Kahf on the night of Friday, will have a light that will stretch between him and the Ancient House (the Ka’bah)" [Narrated by al-Daarimi]

Oxided feeling!

Well, it took a lot of time when love was forming and it's gonna take some time for the love to die. But each and every day i spend forgetting you, well it brings another night i never quite get through. And all I need is time, maybe a thousand years, maybe a million tears, but i need time. As much as i need you.

From JJ: "as long as one has these wrong views on the back of their head, it will be tough to have anybody love anyone.. dont complicate love, its something sweet, natural and above all, innocent".

Saying NO 101

Have you ever be drawn against an attention deficit disorder friend, begging you, and you alone to accompany her to her friend’s wedding? It’s awful rejecting a friend who’s mustering a special attention, but saying NO won’t make you a bad person. In fact, learning how to say it properly will give you a more respectful figure. Sometimes it’s easier to give them a plain white lie, but explaining the true situation with buts is much, much better.

Say things like “i'm actually surprised you are asking. Malacca sounds quite far for me, but happen to be with you make me feel excited. *sigh* Well, i didn’t think that i can make it with you. There’s a small slightly tiny teeny weeny thing i've to do on Saturday. My mom asks me to buy her some fish at nearby market. Yes, blame me, but you know i really have to, aren’t you?”

If she replies with “are you certainly rejecting my invitation?” Say “it’s not like that dear. I’m delaying it to a further invitation. Or shall I give an invitation in return, later?” Then, wait until she replies “okay, i will be fine”. And you’ll find out you’ve made her feel glee. Watch out for a fall-fall tone, she must be sulking or seriously disappointed. Rise-rise tone blatantly shows she is mad on you, but trusts me, she’ll be all right. And don’t forget to leave an apologize and wish a happy day for her. Feel easy to say a long NO. A simple NO is an ouch!

Sudah kawin kah belum?

Dear friends, i am SINGLE. Period. Heard this rumours continously. Sampai i pon naik confuse, i dulu pernah kawin ke? I'm not yet married and not getting married this soon. I've distributed wedding cards but they're not my wedding reception. I've been rummaging and tawafing shopping mall for wedding togs but i ain't going to wear them. I've walked down the street with some guys but they're not mine. I'm neither engaged nor in a serious relationship, honestly, but i am infected with Jake 2.0's virus. That's all. That's all.. i hope.

Venus transit

No living person has seen a transit of Venus because the most recent one occurred in 1882. Believe it or not? Believe it! Tomorrow observers around much of the world will see Venus drift across the face of the sun as Venus passes between the sun and earth. Simple as transits may seem, but put yourself in the history guys!. Persatuan Astronomi Negara Brunei Darussalam and Shahrin can give you some particular of it. Come on Venusians, it's show time!

Just come back from NJ's wedding reception in Penang. Exhausted but every single drop of my sweats are really worth for a good friend i have in good and bad times. And Annie, thanks for the 2 and half hours chat. McD made me talk to strangers! Strange...

Rain and raining

I love rain. Raindrops feel so pleasant when they smash to my face. Few things in life are perfect, and rain is. I love the light spritz. I love the pelting bullets. I thoroughly enjoy the huge plunkers that feel like popped water balloons of long humid days. Yesterday's Rain. Is it going to rain again today? It's Gonna Rain, It's Raining and It's Raining Men. Will have a week off. Yippiesss..

Yummy yummy!!

This guy have been a hero of his story. Have you? or is someone dominating your story? Perhaps, they think they have, and mind you, dont click if you are a nerd or not prepare to be shock. I warned you.. and sure, tak bleh pakai mya helo!

Aragorn s/o Arathorn

Distant dream

I was bumped to my old friend yesterday, reluctantly. He nudged me again and i rolled my eyes. It was quite a year off from his elbows. Was that too much to ask? I suppose so since i got it evertime we met. It was almost enough for me to go back to him and tell that i was uncomfortable with it and not to ask me to go out with him anymore. He nudged me again and i growled. "What do you want now, R?" R is his name. "You are a very nice girl L" L is mine. I'm shocked. "You are becoming a polite, gentle young woman every day, intelligent and fun, deep and sensitive, and helps me look at the world through new perspectives. I wrote about you awhile ago but it still stands". "But i hurt people". "No dear... you're learning and you hurt even more, are'nt you?" And he left, leaving me feel great the whole day. I am Miss Nice Girl! Thanks R, at least you've done some good to me!

Listening to: Hoobastank - The Reason

A journey to mythical Greek

I was once studying the Greek creation myth and i find Thetis (which i usually wrong-spoken with thesis or testis). Thetis is an immortal sea nymph or Nereid, the daughter of Pontus, that was created by Gaia. One day, Thetis was caught by a mortal king, Peleus, who had fallen madly in love with her, which of course caused some problems. Generally it was unwise for mortals to fall in love with immortals, or even vice versa. Subsequently she relented (having gotten to know him rather well in the hijacking process) and agreed to become his wife. 9 months after the marriage, came mortal Achilles, the one which acted by Brad Pitt in Troy. That was a very long intro right?

This movie has been marketed from a legendary war, Trojan War - and i suppose it works. Pitt is perfect as the heroic general, Achilles - the typical killer prince and awesome we all root for. And newly Ausie actor, Bana does okay playing Hector; a young loving prince that still has warrior-look in mini skirt. There are some potentially emotional moments - for one when Hector died and King Priam kneed to Achilles for his body. I’ve wetted my eyes and cheeks! In general, Paris and Helen were the great cause of the downfall of the kingdom, whether they mean to or not; another was when Hector accidently killed Menelaus and Achilles’ cousin. But these were explored in great detail; they were somewhat full of anger and revenge. And woman were still depictured as sex machine (missed those snips). Well, i assure a satisfying movie, even for the second ticket.

And “Interview With The Vampire” rewatch after Troy completes the reason of why i should look forward a dream with Pitt, heh!

Out of boredom

This painting was actually inspired by a lyric; "i wish you bluebird in the spring". Painted on 9th May 2004. Haaa.. nak kutuk la tu!

Bird of Spring

To whom it may concerned

Where do i begin? I have someone i need most in a time. Over the years, it has become a comforting ritual as i always come away with renewed understanding of my place in the world and it's the pleasure of knowing you. I have an idol, a favourite friend, a favorite colleague... the list continues. I know what i need and i know who speaks and listens to me. I recognize the familiar warmth that begins to radiate through me, finally touching my heart as you fulfills a part of me that may not have even realized was wanting. I need you.

I just need to talk to you, i dont know what to do. I'm a failure. I'm distracted and puzzled. Everything messed up, everything felling apart. But you were'nt there when i need to talk to you. So, i think my complaints are valid, that you never care about me, that you sees me only when you pleased, that you are'nt interested in the conversation, that you can even not talk to me for months on end, that it's ok if you didnt find me elsewhere. And these thoughts pissed me on.

I'm sorry for my words. Blame me for my ego, my immatureness, my grumpiness. I know i had said some stuff that is hurtful and it drags us to arguments but i have to speak out my mind. I have been giving the most wonderful person in the world. And i need you so much. I know i have done things to hurt u that i can't change. And for that i am sorry. I just feel useless when you are not around. I feel bad, it's killing me inside knowing what i said. Please, forgive me.

Sing out loud

Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to Nasrudin,
Happy birthday to you...

This song is also dedicated to Pierce Brosnan (16th May), Afni and Aini(20th May) and Redzwan (29th May), in advance. Make me the first who make the annual wish!