Where do i begin? I have someone i need most in a time. Over the years, it has become a comforting ritual as i always come away with renewed understanding of my place in the world and it's the pleasure of knowing you. I have an idol, a favourite friend, a favorite colleague... the list continues. I know what i need and i know who speaks and listens to me. I recognize the familiar warmth that begins to radiate through me, finally touching my heart as you fulfills a part of me that may not have even realized was wanting. I need you.
I just need to talk to you, i dont know what to do. I'm a failure. I'm distracted and puzzled. Everything messed up, everything felling apart. But you were'nt there when i need to talk to you. So, i think my complaints are valid, that you never care about me, that you sees me only when you pleased, that you are'nt interested in the conversation, that you can even not talk to me for months on end, that it's ok if you didnt find me elsewhere. And these thoughts pissed me on.
I'm sorry for my words. Blame me for my ego, my immatureness, my grumpiness. I know i had said some stuff that is hurtful and it drags us to arguments but i have to speak out my mind. I have been giving the most wonderful person in the world. And i need you so much. I know i have done things to hurt u that i can't change. And for that i am sorry. I just feel useless when you are not around. I feel bad, it's killing me inside knowing what i said. Please, forgive me.
3 comments:
there's nobody concern la lun.. kikikii. kira forgivenla tuh, be tough!
lun nak jumpa ust. harun din plak ke? lun, come on, cakap ah direct dengan dia tu.
lagi mau kutuk ah, you two! hehehe..
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