A growing man, he is

I couldn't quite remember the time he entered our big family. I was only 5. During his childhood, he was a kind of girlie type with his long red hair. I could clearly remember the way he asked me to tie up his hair everytime he wanted to play with Erna.

He is now 18 years old. Young and strong. He always feel strange in his own family, like it doesn't work the same way it always had. He thinks no one else is like him, that everybody is too harsh on him and dont appreciate what he do around. He even wonder how he got into a family as dull as his. But the thing is, his entire self has changed. He is irritable, silent and mad for no reason.

Anyway, somebody said that it is a normal process for a growing man. "He is being exposed to more and more foul language, blatantly rebellious attitude and people who are just plain carnal around him (excluding his family). He believes that life had just begun and that he'll live like forever, so he forgot how fragile the life is. Let him have fun, getting out of system, make mistakes, just growing and let him learn by his own. As long as he have faith, he'll be ok." Hmm.. i hope, i hope that he'll turn to that red-hair boy again.

A story about nothing

"What will you have for lunch?"
"I dont know. Ikan sembilang and some fried vege.. maybe. Why?
"Nothing. You said something yesterday. Why is it so?"
"Nothing."

"Have you thought about the direction your love-life is taking L? You may have certain questions about your romances, both past and present. Although this end-of-the-year period is traditionally one of reflection, and often of doubt, do not forget that the energy and effort you put in over the Summer will bring you the fruits you are seeking during the coming Spring. It is easy to get bogged down with excess emotional baggage, so try to keep a certain perspective and use the energy of the sociable Aquarius Moon to demonstrate to those around you that you are still sticking firmly to the path you have chosen to lead. You can also expect this Moon to bring you random moments of joy and laughter and your finances, although this may be difficult for you to believe, look set to evolve in a very positive manner over the next few days."

I could have have you.. Nothing.

Legally er.. blunder?

I like to think that i can take care of rudimentary legal problems in my life, driving licence, robbery, bank account shortage, insurance claim.. name it. But being faced with a troublesome "copyright" (the capital c in a circle) problem, i cant be on the ball. I am dangerously happy for a period of soaking, swimming or even absorbing liquids or solids with skull and crossed-bones and countless warning than this particular thingy with a bang. Ok, one local megazine has published my article (this is the good side of the story) BUT by someone else's name! Duh! What the hell? So i checked this out:

"Ownership of a copyright, or of any of the exclusive rights under a copyright, is distinct from ownership of any material object in which the work is embodied. Transfer of ownership of any material object, including the copy or phonorecord in which the work is first fixed, does not of itself convey any rights in the copyrighted work embodied in the object; nor, in the absence of an agreement, does transfer of ownership of a copyright or of any exclusive rights under a copyright convey property rights in any material object."

I am going to take offence today to have some clarifications. I have a bone to pick with them. Do i need a lawyer? Oh, by the way, that named person has a LLB from a local uni after her name. I'm sure she knows well in advance. Eh satu lagi, tengok Tiger Cup tak semalam? The Thai's scorer tu off side kan?

JD

Till we meet again in the next season! '..but i do feel i will miss you much, miss you much..' sob sob!

When she cries

I was watching people swinging in a pack LRT ride from Taman Melati to KL Sentral on Saturday (thanks for the invitation, again!) when a woman dressed in blue suddenly accosted me in a low voice. Her eyes filled with tears. "I have tried to make things work." She took another deep breathe to fought back the tears and looked through the window. "What i'm going to do?" she said in a meek voice and firmly wraped her arms around her torso.

I pity her so much but i was numb, i couldn't say a word. I hold her hand while she rested her head on my shoulder and begin to sob. "Sometimes its okay to give up, and let nature do it's own way." Shut up! With that sentence, she cried more. So, i let her cry and muted myself. Anyway, i dont know her, but i recognize the pain she suffered. She left with a smile, and i really hope that she'll be ok. This is for you, be strong!

Nonetheless, it's mak's birthday! So, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAK!

Four weddings and a funeral

I met a retired teacher Marie, who suffered from a fatal illness last year. She was a small figured lady with pale skin and wide smile. Aged almost 60. She smelled faintly sour, the way people on medication sometimes do. The doctor guessed she had 2 years left, but she knew it was less. On firm tenderly grip of our fingers, she asked; "tell me dear, what are you going to have in 5 years time, which i may not know." So, i told her about studies, big houses and cars, my own kindergarten and my beautiful raising children. Period. She smiled and said; "where's your husband?" Bingo!

To my just-married friends; Nadiah and Azizan, Aini and Rahmat, Sarah and Suffian, Siti and Zul, may the love that brought you together continue to blossom and flourish throughout your lives. And to you Marie, may you rest in peace.

Pardon me; I am sick!

I was sick last weekend. And am still not feeling well today. Neither climate changes nor tenses made me so. Cause is unknown. I have been sicker every week for the past few months.

God, i hate to be sick. I promptly spent one and half hour over the toilet. I woke up at 2am on and off puking and sleeping all night. So i went to the doctor on Sunday who took about 20 minutes checking here and there to tell me that i got Mr. Migraine, Ms. Gastritis and food poisoning of some sort. The doctor told me to take some serious rest for 2 days and then I should be ok for Wednesday. I am feeling only a small bit better, and I really dont expect it to get better. I am sick of my sicknesses. But anyone who isn't disturbed by the sickness that sickens them everytime they feel sick are sicker than me! Oh, by the way, thanks for Mr. Sony to entertain me while i was heavenly lying around doing nothing those MC days. Hmm, what happen to the prom? Mr. Sony?