Le neuvieme mai

I unintentionally found my very old diary. I wrote this 8 years ago:

"While listening to Bad English’s song, I had a phone call. It was Dylan. We talked for the extent of about 10 minutes when I abruptly said to him; “There’s a new guy in my office whom reminding me of you. He has much of your looks.” “And how does it makes you feel?” he asked. “It doesn’t seem like I am happy for that. My heart keep on screaming ‘don’t talk to me, go away’ anytime he make his way towards me. I think I'm affraid if I miss you”."

Somehow, yes i miss talking to him again. He always makes me feel good about myself. He always be himself and never try to impress me even a bit. I wish he knows that i still remember him. But it never makes me love my hubby less. Although i think the title may contradict a bit. Yes, 3 guys in a post. All whom i know in May.

I came to know Dylan in May 2001. A witty doctor who showed me how to feel, dream and love. He bared to me how every lapse, every moment of indecision and folly and that even tripping; stumbling down the path is absolutely ok. He had led me through episodes of good fun and indulgence. I had met his all sorts of characters and made memories at every turn; listening to story after story, turning through page after page, finding the bottoms of every glass and plate we had together. So i become a strong and independent girl he not expected me to be, who bravely pick to stay when he wanted to move on.

The second May guy i knew on 2004. And i wrote this 4 years ago when i really missed him: "I know we won’t be able to touch each other’s hand. I know we won’t be able to hold each other’s soul. I also know we won’t be able to own each other’s heart, but what am I to do each time I see you there? Each time your eyes meet mine and speak a thousand words without even uttering one single sound. Each time I hear your voice at the other end of the line and get shivers all through my body". And for me it explains a lot.

And on May 2008 i was introduced to this guy whom i married a year after that. Yeaps, tomorrow will be our 3rd wedding anniversary and i still amazed with that! :)