Rain and raining

I love rain. Raindrops feel so pleasant when they smash to my face. Few things in life are perfect, and rain is. I love the light spritz. I love the pelting bullets. I thoroughly enjoy the huge plunkers that feel like popped water balloons of long humid days. Yesterday's Rain. Is it going to rain again today? It's Gonna Rain, It's Raining and It's Raining Men. Will have a week off. Yippiesss..

Yummy yummy!!

This guy have been a hero of his story. Have you? or is someone dominating your story? Perhaps, they think they have, and mind you, dont click if you are a nerd or not prepare to be shock. I warned you.. and sure, tak bleh pakai mya helo!

Aragorn s/o Arathorn

Distant dream

I was bumped to my old friend yesterday, reluctantly. He nudged me again and i rolled my eyes. It was quite a year off from his elbows. Was that too much to ask? I suppose so since i got it evertime we met. It was almost enough for me to go back to him and tell that i was uncomfortable with it and not to ask me to go out with him anymore. He nudged me again and i growled. "What do you want now, R?" R is his name. "You are a very nice girl L" L is mine. I'm shocked. "You are becoming a polite, gentle young woman every day, intelligent and fun, deep and sensitive, and helps me look at the world through new perspectives. I wrote about you awhile ago but it still stands". "But i hurt people". "No dear... you're learning and you hurt even more, are'nt you?" And he left, leaving me feel great the whole day. I am Miss Nice Girl! Thanks R, at least you've done some good to me!

Listening to: Hoobastank - The Reason

A journey to mythical Greek

I was once studying the Greek creation myth and i find Thetis (which i usually wrong-spoken with thesis or testis). Thetis is an immortal sea nymph or Nereid, the daughter of Pontus, that was created by Gaia. One day, Thetis was caught by a mortal king, Peleus, who had fallen madly in love with her, which of course caused some problems. Generally it was unwise for mortals to fall in love with immortals, or even vice versa. Subsequently she relented (having gotten to know him rather well in the hijacking process) and agreed to become his wife. 9 months after the marriage, came mortal Achilles, the one which acted by Brad Pitt in Troy. That was a very long intro right?

This movie has been marketed from a legendary war, Trojan War - and i suppose it works. Pitt is perfect as the heroic general, Achilles - the typical killer prince and awesome we all root for. And newly Ausie actor, Bana does okay playing Hector; a young loving prince that still has warrior-look in mini skirt. There are some potentially emotional moments - for one when Hector died and King Priam kneed to Achilles for his body. I’ve wetted my eyes and cheeks! In general, Paris and Helen were the great cause of the downfall of the kingdom, whether they mean to or not; another was when Hector accidently killed Menelaus and Achilles’ cousin. But these were explored in great detail; they were somewhat full of anger and revenge. And woman were still depictured as sex machine (missed those snips). Well, i assure a satisfying movie, even for the second ticket.

And “Interview With The Vampire” rewatch after Troy completes the reason of why i should look forward a dream with Pitt, heh!

Out of boredom

This painting was actually inspired by a lyric; "i wish you bluebird in the spring". Painted on 9th May 2004. Haaa.. nak kutuk la tu!

Bird of Spring

To whom it may concerned

Where do i begin? I have someone i need most in a time. Over the years, it has become a comforting ritual as i always come away with renewed understanding of my place in the world and it's the pleasure of knowing you. I have an idol, a favourite friend, a favorite colleague... the list continues. I know what i need and i know who speaks and listens to me. I recognize the familiar warmth that begins to radiate through me, finally touching my heart as you fulfills a part of me that may not have even realized was wanting. I need you.

I just need to talk to you, i dont know what to do. I'm a failure. I'm distracted and puzzled. Everything messed up, everything felling apart. But you were'nt there when i need to talk to you. So, i think my complaints are valid, that you never care about me, that you sees me only when you pleased, that you are'nt interested in the conversation, that you can even not talk to me for months on end, that it's ok if you didnt find me elsewhere. And these thoughts pissed me on.

I'm sorry for my words. Blame me for my ego, my immatureness, my grumpiness. I know i had said some stuff that is hurtful and it drags us to arguments but i have to speak out my mind. I have been giving the most wonderful person in the world. And i need you so much. I know i have done things to hurt u that i can't change. And for that i am sorry. I just feel useless when you are not around. I feel bad, it's killing me inside knowing what i said. Please, forgive me.

Sing out loud

Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to Nasrudin,
Happy birthday to you...

This song is also dedicated to Pierce Brosnan (16th May), Afni and Aini(20th May) and Redzwan (29th May), in advance. Make me the first who make the annual wish!

Post-Monday syndrome

I just feel all out of sorts and i don't really know how to make myself feel better cause i'm frustrated and once something frustrating happens i tend to dwell on it but when it happened, they came and went and i still feel shitty and i just don't know how to overcome it. The shittiest thing about life is that i can't get up and just let it all away, but why can't i? I just don't trust that i can actually handle it. I just want someone to ask me what's wrong but nobody does or if somebody does it's not that said person i am looking forward.

There will always be someone that we dont care much, they are available yet invisible. But when the going gets tough, they are the one worth relying for.

Primitive life I am having

A nice newly met friend asked my number. OMG. I dont have mobile phone. Period. Have i missed those lucky glitters? Losing a mobile phone would be similar to an affliction for me, and I found myself really annoyed with that. As much as i hate to admit it, i am far more relying on my mobile than my sunday nasi lemak. People who live with mobile phone and can access it anytime really get on my nerves, when they go only one hour without bringing their mobile pun they complain. *Sigh* Ok, a new mobile phone will cost me at minimum RM700 and darn, it is a bit too much than an exceeded bill. All in all, seriously i've been needing it like hell.

What's a house?

If there's one thing i'd like to have for my own self, it would definitely be a house. A house of my own. A small, tidy, well-furnished house and i am all alone. Unluckily, it is not a norm in Malaysia that a singleton live by their selves - not for a local educated, semi economic, malay cultured girl like me. Things to consider like the type of house that can fit my parent's requirements of security, finance, location, comfy and particularly duration. I need to move out from this house. I really do. Or should i move the people? *evil evil*