Reasoning

Today i want to learn to play piano so badly. Or maybe guitar? But then i think playing a musical instrument is not as important as wanting myself to be fit again. And when i know how to play some music and able to tune my own ballad, i may want to own a piano. Or a guitar. A piano is costly and having a small place make it almost impossible to have a piano afterall. It's not too late to learn to play piano, true?

Ok, and i also want to enroll to a pilates class. I do pilates years back, thus explain the fitness i had. Maybe once or twice a week can do. It don't do any harm to come home 2-3 hours late once or twice a week. At least i don't think my little girl would complaint. Or will my hubby? Or my mum in law? But then, we're planning for our second child. How is it like to have the flat tummy and fit body but then have to give it up again?

And i also want that yummy looking brown leather fossil vintage re-issue clutch bag.

Hmm.. i need to focus!

Still me

Suppose if i want to start strutting again
Suppose if i want to bring this blog to life
Suppose if i want to keep my 'things' here..
I think nobody would care
True?

Things around me change very fast; they move, grow, lost, rebuilt, multiply etc without me knowing. I cannot catch up with everything, in fact anything. I live my normal life and period. That is it. But suddenly it is not it. I need to change too. I need to be compassionate as i was before. I need to be optimistic. I need to make myself beautiful again. That is why i want to write again. So that i remember that i've promised that i will change.

And that is it!