Offside

"Dah 30 tahun hidup, tak tau apa yang paling menyeronokkan" [3:57am]

Aku diam waktu tu. Diam sebab mamai lagi. Diam sebab aku tak faham. Diam sebab aku pun tak tahu nak cakap apa. Bangun je pagi-pagi tadi tak semena-mena aku teringat benda kau buat yang pernah jadi perkara yang paling menyeronokkan dalam hidup aku.

3 tahun dulu, kau datang lebih kurang 10 minit lepas azan subuh, kau kata kau nak cepat. Aku sarung tudung kepala yang kalernya tak matching dengan pijama Mickey Mouse biru aku. Aku terpaksa terpisat-pisat keluar dari bilik menuju ke parking lot sebelum lagi aku solat subuh. Aku jumpa kau tersengih-sengih dalam gelap. Aku tanya kau kenapa, kau sengih lagi. Aku beritahu kau, aku belum gosok gigi. Kau sengih jugak. Aku rasa macam nak tertidur balik.

"Will you marry me?" Kau tanya aku sambil hulur cincin bermata satu dalam kotak baldu warna biru. Aku pandang kiri kanan sebab ingat kau cakap dengan orang lain. Waktu tu kepala lutut rasa lembik. Rasa nak nangis. Kau tahu tak itu antara perkara yang paling menyeronokkan dalam hidup aku? Oh, dan kebetulan semalam masa bertelefon, aku masih pakai pijama Mickey Mouse biru tu. Cuma cincin bermata satu itu tak ada lagi di jari aku.

"Why dont you try to kick a goal?" MA pernah tanya aku tentang kau.
"I was in an offside position" Aku telan 660mg PEA pagi ni.

On choices and time

There's an e-mail telling me on how to insert golf balls, pebbles, sand and coffee to fit in a jar. Fill it first with golf balls, pebbles, sand and finally coffee, so that the jar will be enough for the whole things. Say that the jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things - your God, family, children, health and friends. The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, house, and car. The sand is everything else - the small stuff. And dont ever forget for a couple of cups of coffee. Take care of the golf balls first, the things that really matter.

Perhaps anyone of us would probably realize that our life is shaped by the time. On when is the right time to wake up, to be in the office, to have lunch, to get back home and finally go to bed. But time did'nt tell us when it stops. If God grant me for 25 years to live, isnt i just too old now? Too old to get my jar filled. I'm running out of time too.

'Kullu nafsin zaaiqatul maut'

The month of Rejab

We have come to the special months when Allah (SWT) extends His mercy and forgiveness to the highest levels. For instance, it is Friday in the weekdays, and In the Islamic calender, the months of Rejab, Sya'ban, and Ramadan are the such to name. Tomorrow is the 1st day of Rejab. Jom pakat puasa ramai-ramai!

"O my Allah pour out much blessings for us in Rejab and Sya'ban, make us reach safely Ramadhan, and take up abstinence and uprightness (fasting and prayers), careful in our speech, turning the eyes from ugliness (the unlawful); and do not let us hunger for food and thirst for water while we observe fast. O Allah ! make the new moon appear, for us with security; iman, safety and Islam. (O moon) my Lord and Your Lord is Allah the Mighty and Grand."

Wake-up call pukul 5:00am pulak ye, kita sahur sama!

Pleonasm

"It is possible that ye dislike a thing which is good for you, and that ye love a thing which is bad for you. But God knoweth, and ye know not" [2:216]

(1) SMS contest is HARAM (forbidden): GOOD
(2) "Waris, summary kena buat balik!" : Hmm.. still GOOD
(3) S****Y promorter said "itu EURO punya ah? you tengok ini VCD [Aerobics] lagi baik loo" sambil gelak-gelak tengok aku pegang choc brownies dan aiskrim : What the.. ??? NOT GOOD!

It's hard to find God in simple things.

100 Days and counting

If i am schooling, i am 100 times smarter. If i am on vacation, i've broke and probably lost in Rome. If i plant a seed, it grows and reach the same height as mine. If i am pregnant, my baby measures about 4 inches and weighs 3 ounces. But if 100 days of nothing baby, i'm blase."100 days had made me older, since the last time that i saw your pretty face"