So to speak

It is hard to be someone between employee and bonuses. Really.

My boss keep skirting around if i pop up about bonuses. The answer will digress and suddenly the problem with the nation be like ours to discuss and finally resolve. There will be talks about Maybank conspiracy, credit cards, rojak and cendol, Yakuza, arwah Nurin and rumours, you name it. The thin layer between yes and no seems so hard to identify.

He is either a very charismatic authoritarian guy or he uses hypnotism. I keep myself unable to focus on bonuses after every conversation. What is apparent from my experience with him these 2 years is that his workers cant really put their guts in order to speak about extra moolahs ever before. It was heavenly for him.

Now it’s me, the person who is in charge of salaries, bonuses, commissions, reimbursements, allowances and what not hit myself up with thousands of reasons to both occasions; yes or no to annual bonuses. It is plain to me, after talking to somebody, that there are 2 separate identities that i need to be addressed; being an employer as opposed to being an employee.

“Do you know why is great to be you?”
“No, why?”
“Because you can be both parties. You’ll be loved by your boss and staff nonetheless with or without bonuses. They’ll just blame themselves not you”

Now i know better. Hehe..