Wednesday, October 27, 2004

Kuliah Ramadhan III

Khutbah Rasulullah menyambut Ramadhan III (Akhir)

"Wahai manusia, sesungguhnya kamu akan dinaungi oleh bulan yang senantiasa besar lagi penuh keberkahan, yaitu bulan yang di dalamnya ada suatu malam yang lebih baik dari seribu bulan; bulan yang Allah telah menjadikan puasanya suatu fardhu, dan qiyam di malam harinya suatu tathawwu'. Barangsiapa mendekatkan diri kepada Allah dengan suatu pekerjaan kebajikan di dalamnya, samalah dia dengan orang yang menunaikan suatu fardhu di dalam bulan yang lain. Ramadhan itu adalah bulan sabar, sedangkan sabar itu adalah pahalanya surga. Ramadhan itu adalah bulan memberi pertolongan (syahrul muwasah) dan bulan Allah memberikan rizqi kepada mukmin di dalamnya."

"Barangsiapa memberikan makanan berbuka seseorang yang berpuasa, adalah yang demikian itu merupakan pengampunan bagi dosanya dan kemerdekaan dirinya dari neraka. Orang yang memberikan makanan itu memperoleh pahala seperti orang yang berpuasa tanpa sedikitpun berkurang."

Para sahabat berkata, "Ya Rasulullah, tidaklah semua kami memiliki makanan berbuka puasa untuk orang lain yang berpuasa. Maka bersabdalah Rasulullah saw, "Allah memberikan pahala kepada orang yang memberi sebutir kurma, atau seteguk air, atau sehirup susu. Dialah bulan yang permulaannya rahmat,pertengahannya ampunan dan akhirnya pembebasan dari neraka. Barangsiapa meringankan beban dari budak sahaya (termasuk di sini para pembantu rumah) niscaya Allah mengampuni dosanya dan memerdekakannya dari neraka."

"Oleh karena itu banyakkanlah yang empat perkara di bulan Ramadhan; dua perkara untuk mendatangkan keridhaan Tuhanmu, dan dua perkara lagi kamu sangat menghajatinya. Dua perkara yang pertama ialah mengakui dengan sesungguhnya bahwa tidak ada Tuhan selain Allah dan mohon ampun kepada-Nya .Dua perkara yang kamu sangat memerlukannya ialah mohon surga dan perlindungan dari neraka."

"Barangsiapa memberi minum kepada orang yang berbuka puasa, niscaya Allah memberi minum kepadanya dari air kolam-Ku dengan suatu minuman yang dia tidak merasakan haus lagi sesudahnya, sehingga dia masuk ke dalam syurga."

(HR. Ibnu Huzaimah).


Tuesday, October 26, 2004

Kuliah Ramadhan II

Khutbah Rasulullah menyambut Ramadhan II

Wahai manusia! Barang siapa di antaramu memberi buka kepada orang-orang mukmin yang berpuasa di bulan ini, maka di sisi ALLAH nilainya sama dengan membebaskan seorang budak dan dia diberi ampunan atas dosa-dosa yang lalu. (Sahabat-sahabat lain bertanya: "Ya Rasulullah! Tidaklah kami semua mampu berbuat demikian."Rasulullah meneruskan:) Jagalah dirimu dari api neraka walaupun hanya dengan sebiji kurma. Jagalah dirimu dari api neraka walaupun hanya dengan seteguk air.

Wahai manusia! Siapa yang membaguskan akhlaknya di bulan ini ia akan berhasil melewati sirathol mustaqim pada hari ketika kaki-kaki tergelincir. Siapa yang meringankan pekerjaan orang-orang yang dimiliki tangan kanannya(pegawai atau pembantu) di bulan ini, ALLAH akan meringankan pemeriksaan-Nya di hari kiamat. Barangsiapa menahan kejelekannya di bulan ini, ALLAH akan menahan murka-Nya pada hari ia berjumpa dengan-Nya.

Barang siapa memuliakan anak yatim di bulan ini, ALLAH akan memuliakanya pada hari ia berjumpa dengan-Nya. Barang siapa menyambungkan tali persaudaraan (silaturahmi) di bulan ini, ALLAH akan menghubungkan dia dengan rahmat-Nya pada hari ia berjumpa dengan-Nya. Barang siapa memutuskan kekeluargaan di bulan ini, ALLAH akan memutuskan rahmat-Nya pada hari ia berjumpa dengan-Nya. Barangsiapa melakukan shalat sunat di bulan ini, ALLAH akan menuliskan baginya kebebasan dari api neraka. Barangsiapa melakukan shalat fardu baginya ganjaran seperti melakukan 70 shalat fardu di bulan lain. Barangsiapa memperbanyak shalawat kepadaku di bulan ini,ALLAH akan memberatkan timbangannya pada hari ketika timbangan meringan. Barangsiapa di bulan ini membaca satu ayat Al-Quran, ganjarannya sama seperti mengkhatam Al-Quran pada bulan-bulan yang lain.

Wahai manusia! Sesungguhnya pintu-pintu surga dibukakan bagimu, maka mintalah kepada Tuhanmu agar tidak pernah menutupkannya bagimu. Pintu-pintu neraka tertutup, maka mohonlah kepada Rabbmu untuk tidak akan pernah dibukakan bagimu. Setan-setan terbelenggu, maka mintalah agar ia tak lagi pernah menguasaimu. Amirul mukminin k.w. berkata: "Aku berdiri dan berkata:

"Ya Rasulullah! Apa amal yang paling utama di bulan ini?" Jawab Nabi:
"Ya Abal Hasan! Amal yang paling utama di bulan ini adalah menjaga diri dari apa yang diharamkan ALLAH".

Friday, October 22, 2004

Kuliah Ramadhan I

Khutbah Rasulullah menyambut Ramadhan.

"Wahai manusia! Sungguh telah datang pada kalian bulan ALLAH dengan membawa berkah rahmat dan maghfirah. Bulan yang paling mulia disisi ALLAH. Hari-harinya adalah hari-hari yang paling utama. Malam-malamnya adalah malam-malam yang paling utama. Jam demi jamnya adalah jam-jam yang paling utama.

Inilah bulan ketika kamu diundang menjadi tetamu ALLAH dan dimuliakan oleh-NYA. Di bulan ini nafas-nafasmu menjadi tasbih, tidurmu ibadah, amal-amalmu diterima dan doa-doamu diijabah. Bermohonlah kepada ALLAH Rabbmu dengan niat yang tulus dan hati yang suci agar ALLAH membimbingmu untuk melakukan shiyam dan membaca Kitab-Nya. Celakalah orang yang tidak mendapat ampunan ALLAH di bulan yang agung ini.

Kenanglah dengan rasa lapar dan hausmu kelaparan dan kehausan di hari kiamat. Bersedekahlah kepada kaum fuqara dan masakin. Muliakanlah orang tuamu, sayangilah yang muda, sambungkanlah tali persaudaraanmu, jaga lidahmu, tahan pandanganmu dari apa yang tidak halal kamu memandangnya dan pendengaranmu dari apa yang tidak halah kamu mendengarnya. Kasihilah anak-anak yatim, niscaya dikasihi manusia anak-anak yatimmu.

Bertaubatlah kepada ALLAH dari dosa-dosamu. Angkatlah tangan-tanganmu untuk berdoa pada waktu shalatmu karena itulah saat-saat yang paling utama ketika ALLAH Azza wa Jalla memandang hamba-hamba-Nya dengan penuh kasih; Dia menjawab mereka ketika mereka menyeru-Nya, menyambut mereka ketika mereka memanggil-Nya dan mengabulkan doa mereka ketika mereka berdoa kepada-Nya.

Wahai manusia! Sesungguhnya diri-dirimu tergadai karena amal-amalmu, maka bebaskanlah dengan istighfar. Punggung-punggungmu berat karena beban (dosa) mu, maka ringankanlah dengan memperpanjang sujudmu.Ketahuilah! ALLAH ta'ala bersumpah dengan segala kebesaran-Nya bahwa Dia tidak akan mengazab orang-orang yang shalat dan sujud, dan tidak akan mengancam mereka dengan neraka pada hari manusia berdiri di hadapan Rabb al-alamin.

Tuesday, October 05, 2004

Him

I've wrote this some time ago in my cyber diary:

"I really hope he’ll never know about my writings. I mean this webby. My cyber diary. As I finally discovered something; meeting him does one of the most desiring things I have ever hope (in good means). I find him as a person with full of emotions. He turns hot and cold in a swift. It made me feel as there’s still so much thing I don’t know about him. I find him quite bewildering. It’s like meeting a new guy as much as I turn to see his small eyes. I met him last night. This impressive, arousing, unexpected guy. I’m down with his advent. I have realized something upbeat to the eminence life of mine recently, after knowing him. Before, I was like most young woman whose just came from an awful breakup. I was isolating myself from the whole world. Stayed in my room, alone; jogging, reading, skiping meals, writing, reading, movie watching, sleeping, reading, bla.. bla.. bla.. A complete picture of a disorganized lonely life. Now, he has done wonders to me. I have learnt to appreciate my life well. I have learnt to care for his feeling, aside from mine which was far from similarities. I have learnt not to become self centered and find delight in seeing him smile or laugh. I learnt that there’s always somebody I can talk and listen to. And that is him.

This way or another, I guess, that’s one of tons uncounted reasons for admiring him. Yeah.. I like him. I admit it. Sincerely."

Happy Birthday to HIM

Friday, October 01, 2004

A bad hair day

"Repunzel, Repunzel let down your hair that I could climb the golden iron stair."

Ok, this is the story. I want to get my hair cut. I told the hairdresser so many times to leave the longest part alone, but she cut it shorter and shorter everytime she cut off the back part. What I really wanted was trim my hair and put some layer on both fringes so it wont look so volume and heavy. I love my Repunzel hair. [You look younger this way] I dont care if i look like an Ah Soh, I love my Repunzel hair. [See, your small cute face really suit the hair cut] Cute? Your head-lah. Did my red teary eyes look cute to you? [It's look like two hairdressers get their job done] Waaa.. I want my hair back! [Ok then, I'll give you some discount. Total = RM25.00] My lost hair is uncomparable you know.. sob.. sob.. Grow fast my dear hair. Grow fast and healthy.

"The golden iron stair has gone mama, tho the Prince is up here and we will live happily ever after."

Thursday, September 30, 2004

When paper meets pencil


I was drawing again. It was the picture of a lost guy in his journey and his determination to be back whence he came all by his ownself. I did my best, but could not finish it. I always wanted to draw a picture of such beauty, which help me feeling the wonder of daily life, for it speaks in colours, curves and lines. A picture that carry the colour of life that reaches into my heart. Oh, forget about it. Jangan kutuk tau!

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

Haiku hari Selasa

Ketaidenwa oto
Yume meiki
Aishite imasu


Telefon berbunyi
Mengingat mimpi
Saya sayang kamu

Telephone rang
Remember the dreams
I love you

A haiku is Japanese peotic form, that contain seventeen syllables arranged in five,seven and five syllables respectively in three rows. And my Malay version haiku have 20 syllables, with eight, five and seven syllables for each rows. It's mine!

Friday, September 24, 2004

Inertia

The tendency of matter to remain at rest if at rest or to remain in motion in a straight line if in motion, unless pushed or pulled by an unbalanced force. [Newton's First Law]

For some reasons, trying hard to fix things isn't enough. I'm so tired and sick of sticking around even after direct and indirect signals, that i am not good at this. Maybe its the sheer inertia that stopping me to go further. Maybe its the geek thing in me that reluctant to change my routine and have a fresh new look. Maybe theres no force to keep my feet off the ground. Maybe i'm too scared. And maybe its because of YOU.

Wednesday, September 22, 2004

Doubutsu

Hari ini while having lunch ada seorang student duduk depan aku dengan baju hitam bertulisan hiragana. Aku cuma cam tiga suku kata, do u _ shi. Aku tulis dalam buku nota kecil satu lagi suku kata yang aku kurang cam. Sekarang aku dah tahu. Satu lagi suku kata itu 'bu' dan suku kata akhir itu rupanya 'tsu'. Jadi perkataan itu rupanya 'doubutsu' kata melayunya haiwan. Oh, satu kronologi menarik - seORANG student memakai baju DOUBUTSU dengan tulisan besar.

Jadi kalau dia boleh interpretasikan sesuatu dengan tulisan hiragana pada baju, jadi kalau aku, aku akan pilih tulisan yang begini pada baju :"Aku tak mahu pergi mesyuarat petang ini sebab aku malas dan aku sakit perut" Boleh begitu? Dan Harimu san sahaja yang akan faham. Matta arimashou!

Monday, September 13, 2004

What gives?

Here's what we got in Budget 2005.

121. [bla.. bla.. bla..] Untuk menjadikan profesion kedoktoran awam lebih remuneratif, Kerajaan akan melaksanakan kaedah rawatan swasta di hospital awam terpilih bermula dengan Hospital Putrajaya dan Selayang.

And here's what we got in the Minister's speech.

9. [bla.. bla.. bla..] ..beberapa kelemahan yang sering diperkatakan oleh rakyat. Isu yang menjadi buah mulut kini tidak melainkan long waiting time. Antara lainnya, diharapkan pengagihan sumber yang seimbang akan mengurangkan waiting time dan sudah pasti tindakan ini dapat memberi kepuasan kepada rakyat selaku pelanggan Kementerian.

I think it's funny to give the bees another comb. Dan kau tahu tak betapa susahnya aku terpaksa mencari baju batik tu?

Tuesday, September 07, 2004

Sleepless in SA

At night, as light fades, cells in the retina of the eye send a signal to a cluster of nerve cells located in the hypothalamus, in the center of the brain. These cells in turn send a message to the pineal gland in the brain to produce the hormone melatonin, which causes a drop in body temperature and sleepiness. At the same time, another cluster of nerve cells in the brain is believed to deactivate three major chemical messengers in the body, that keep us alert: histamine, norephinephrine, and serotonin.

Ok, so if insomnia occurs, there's something wrong.
1) It is not night.
2) You did'nt switch off the light.
3) Retina send a wrong signal, she's myopic.
4) Hypothalamus have move out from Central Brain.
5) Pineal Gland was broke, he cant produce anything.
6) Cluster deactivate caffeine and PEA.
7) You keep thinking what have gone wrong.

Thursday, August 26, 2004

Offside

"Dah 30 tahun hidup, tak tau apa yang paling menyeronokkan" [3:57am]

Aku diam waktu tu. Diam sebab mamai lagi. Diam sebab aku tak faham. Diam sebab aku pun tak tahu nak cakap apa. Bangun je pagi-pagi tadi tak semena-mena aku teringat benda kau buat yang pernah jadi perkara yang paling menyeronokkan dalam hidup aku.

3 tahun dulu, kau datang lebih kurang 10 minit lepas azan subuh, kau kata kau nak cepat. Aku sarung tudung kepala yang kalernya tak matching dengan pijama Mickey Mouse biru aku. Aku terpaksa terpisat-pisat keluar dari bilik menuju ke parking lot sebelum lagi aku solat subuh. Aku jumpa kau tersengih-sengih dalam gelap. Aku tanya kau kenapa, kau sengih lagi. Aku beritahu kau, aku belum gosok gigi. Kau sengih jugak. Aku rasa macam nak tertidur balik.

"Will you marry me?" Kau tanya aku sambil hulur cincin bermata satu dalam kotak baldu warna biru. Aku pandang kiri kanan sebab ingat kau cakap dengan orang lain. Waktu tu kepala lutut rasa lembik. Rasa nak nangis. Kau tahu tak itu antara perkara yang paling menyeronokkan dalam hidup aku? Oh, dan kebetulan semalam masa bertelefon, aku masih pakai pijama Mickey Mouse biru tu. Cuma cincin bermata satu itu tak ada lagi di jari aku.

"Why dont you try to kick a goal?" MA pernah tanya aku tentang kau.
"I was in an offside position" Aku telan 660mg PEA pagi ni.

Thursday, August 19, 2004

On choices and time

There's an e-mail telling me on how to insert golf balls, pebbles, sand and coffee to fit in a jar. Fill it first with golf balls, pebbles, sand and finally coffee, so that the jar will be enough for the whole things. Say that the jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things - your God, family, children, health and friends. The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, house, and car. The sand is everything else - the small stuff. And dont ever forget for a couple of cups of coffee. Take care of the golf balls first, the things that really matter.

Perhaps anyone of us would probably realize that our life is shaped by the time. On when is the right time to wake up, to be in the office, to have lunch, to get back home and finally go to bed. But time did'nt tell us when it stops. If God grant me for 25 years to live, isnt i just too old now? Too old to get my jar filled. I'm running out of time too.

'Kullu nafsin zaaiqatul maut'

Monday, August 16, 2004

The month of Rejab

We have come to the special months when Allah (SWT) extends His mercy and forgiveness to the highest levels. For instance, it is Friday in the weekdays, and In the Islamic calender, the months of Rejab, Sya'ban, and Ramadan are the such to name. Tomorrow is the 1st day of Rejab. Jom pakat puasa ramai-ramai!

"O my Allah pour out much blessings for us in Rejab and Sya'ban, make us reach safely Ramadhan, and take up abstinence and uprightness (fasting and prayers), careful in our speech, turning the eyes from ugliness (the unlawful); and do not let us hunger for food and thirst for water while we observe fast. O Allah ! make the new moon appear, for us with security; iman, safety and Islam. (O moon) my Lord and Your Lord is Allah the Mighty and Grand."

Wake-up call pukul 5:00am pulak ye, kita sahur sama!

Friday, August 13, 2004

Pleonasm

"It is possible that ye dislike a thing which is good for you, and that ye love a thing which is bad for you. But God knoweth, and ye know not" [2:216]


(1) SMS contest is HARAM (forbidden): GOOD
(2) "Waris, summary kena buat balik!" : Hmm.. still GOOD
(3) S****Y promorter said "itu EURO punya ah? you tengok ini VCD [Aerobics] lagi baik loo" sambil gelak-gelak tengok aku pegang choc brownies dan aiskrim : What the.. ??? NOT GOOD!

It's hard to find God in simple things.

Wednesday, August 04, 2004

100 Days and counting



If i am schooling, i am 100 times smarter. If i am on vacation, i've broke and probably lost in Rome. If i plant a seed, it grows and reach the same height as mine. If i am pregnant, my baby measures about 4 inches and weighs 3 ounces. But if 100 days of nothing baby, i'm blase."100 days had made me older, since the last time that i saw your pretty face"

Thursday, July 29, 2004

2 Things i hate about you..

Ha ha.. Hari ni aku free.. FREE, ha ha.. boleh gelakkan orang yang jadualnya ketat sendat padat. Ha ha.. Syukur, Tuhan kurniakan aku hari Khamis yang mulia kasi aku rehat cukup-cukup. Even tak payah fikir pasal ke mana hilangnya tong air suling aku. Ha ha.. esok orang pulak gelakkan aku, gelakkan sampai hari Sabtu!

Hari ni awal pagi lagi aku dah rasa sayu, suddenly terkenang cinta K3G Naina pada Rahul. Kata Naina "Takpelah kalau kisah cinta aku tak berkesudahan, tapi janji dengan aku, tamatkan kisah cinta kau Rahul". Oh, rasanya macam tu. Aku tak mahu jadi Naina, atau Rahul. Aku tak mampu jadi Naina, atau Rahul. Jangan mintak aku jadi Naina, atau Rahul. Jangan paksa aku.

"I hate it when you're not around
And the fact that you didn't call,
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you;
Not even close;
Not even a little bit;
Not even at all."
Kat; 10 Things I Hate About You


Tak apa, yang penting aku free.. FREE, dan masih perasan terkena bahana cinta sayu. Relevan?.. entahlah. Sekejap, aku check PEA aku.

Wednesday, July 28, 2004

A new shoes and a shoes

Shopping spree! Shopping spree! And i need a new pair of shoes. I'd been thinking of buying one for a while, imagining what it would be like. I'd like a half/full covered with non-skid sole as i work at the lab most of the time. It begins with the right materials, the right comfy, and above all a real smart look of both insole and outsole. I've been facing some difficulties with these current shoes and it didn't have the right amount of stresses for the job required.

Although i've done all the selection, i'd put off making the final purchase. I wasn't sure if i was quite ready for such replacement - and to be honest i was scared i'd end up buying the wrong shoes and wind up being disappointed. These old shoes had been with me through good and bad times, and it understands me well. A new shoes does'nt guarantee a hassle-free, rite? But anyway i need a new shoes, and a shoes.

Monday, July 19, 2004

Pastman

When i was about to begin the class session, i saw a familiar well known face rushed into the lab. He was late. I recognize his style. I known him for so long, only that we were technically out of touch due to me migrating here for the past few years. I cant believe this, i cant believe that i bump into this guy again. I remember those times we had every Saturday night together, experiencing the beauty and stillness of the night. I remember the face who took my nothingness and gave something better in return. Ashraf Mustaqim, he is.

Well.. he is my Astronomy little 'sifu'. He taught me about the stars, about the charm of the sky every Saturday night. He introduced me to Prof Chong Hon Yew, an expert in Astronomy and he made me believe that the world is not enough for me. Hmm.. "Okay, lets start the class now."

Thursday, July 15, 2004

What a word can summarize


Moral: Watch your words.